21st birthday.....

Oct 5th, i've been through a happiest birthday in my life...

this is the year, that i can cried in front of my friends, jz because of a suprised birthday cake...
it makes me cried out, with a touched feeling... really thanks to them...

that's the day, i've been gone thru a sad moment... it is because of someone... been talked in phone with my good gor gor.... really thanks for his comfort... and i will remembered his words... and i hope he's fine in his relationship too... all the best to him...

i felt that, when someone grow up older and older, their problems will grow more and more... it's the time for me to let go everything, put down all the things and be a new person... i really hope everything can change after next year...

it's so suffer to keep on waiting... although i already knew the answer... but, i really cant give up... i tried to... if i can giv up, i already giv up last year. but things still run in my mind, and something ask me down let go 1st... so... i will jz wait... and wait... wait for the answer frm someone.......

in this birthday, i oni realize... family is very important to us... frens too... without them.. our life will be dark in colour. but, becareful to get a fren that u really trusted so much... at last, this fren might be harm u.... this is wat i think...... and frm this birthday, i oni realize, wat is true friendship. and i can say, i really cant believe in friendship at this moment. my heart was like killing by someone... because of someone, it makes me feel so sick abt it..... i hope that this someone can realize, problem is not me, is always u who create all the problems... if u really wanna go somewhere, u must think abt the future from now on... at least, respect yr family members 1st... that wat i learnt from all the days i live without parent beside u... yes, parent will always protect us... but, if u still not awake, and not realize u did wrong, how u ask yr parent to protect u? yr parent will jz feel dissapointed to u..... take it as an advice, and learn from the mistake u had made...

it's morning.....

today, i m so tired....... but...... i cant sleep... i do not know what happen to me...

is it i m wrong to view his profile? shud i stop viewing his profile? urgh! hate myself... thot i can let it go..... but i cant......... i feel so speechless......... few more days, few more days only...... and wat i reaaly wish is that, he can wish me happy birthday...... in what way i dun mind.... if his wishes arrive, i bet... i bet that it will be my biggest present that i ever had.... but now, i really dunno where is him? where he went? i didn had his news since that incident happen. i know that he hate me..... and mayb he will forgotten me......

i wanna change num, but i cant... i scare he will find me back when he's back....... i wanna forgotten our promises... but, when i forgotten everything, i oni realize that..... i cant even forget it.... it's always in my heart.yeah.... it's hard to forget abt it.... and i really cant forget........... i hope that i can eat some medicine, that giv me forget the pass... and move towards...

people always said, we should move forward, and forget the pass... yeah, i know abt it. if we didn walk out frm the pass, we cant see what happen in front of us... maybe got someone is more good than him? but, i m not sure.... cause..... all i know is that, he's the greatest 1 in my life...... and that is what i want in my life........ i hope that person will know this...

my 21st birthday..........

huhu..... finally finished my 1st assignment... hand in already... can put down a my burden a little bit... by no matter wat, still got 2 more going on... hmmm... i think after this, i can have enough of sleep liao...

well... after 1st week of sch, now i m in KL... cause, wanna celebrating birthday with my dearest bro in KL...

thursday nite, arrived in KL ard 12 something... didn go anywhere... come back home... straight away on my laptop and online, play Fish-A-Fish... hehe... my favourite games nowadays... thanks my darling for introducing me this game loh...hehe. Friday whole day, doing nothing in the hse... online, Fish-A-Fish... and my darling gav me a name "FISH QUEEN"...haha... i love to fish a lot.....hmm.....

well, time fly until Sat... yeah.. finally, i can go out liao...... in the afternoon, went to Pavillion. had a good lunch, and i m very very full... walked all the way to Sg.Wang frm Pavillion. reason is, i wanna go Chamber..... actually go there also no reason. but finally, i bought 2 books frm there... hmm.... walked back to Pavillion, and we r heading to MOF... a famous Japanese Restaurant, and famous with their Ice-Cream... yeah... love it so much......

in the night, went to The Curve... 2nd round...haha.... went to TGI Fridays as wat i wished since few months ago..... and this is the promises loh..haha... ate very full there... but at last, we went to Starbucks again... for another cup of coffee... sat there, nearly fall asleep... so so so tired... as the last nite... me and my bro didn sleep at all... we watched drama until 6am in the morning, we oni went to sleep...got a laptop beg in The Curve... gosh.... i m soo soooooooooo touched... thanks thanks thanks........

back home with full of tiredness... but i m appreciate a lot....... and i wanna thanks to my parent too... for the new hp they gave it to me..... love u all forever~!!!!!!!111

for someone i promised to meet them in KL, but at last didn meet... feel sorry to him..... i know he feel sad... but i got 'ku zhong' for not meeting you... sorry.........

and for someone now staying far away frm M'sia, i m so miss u.... the most regretful is, i didn tell u that i wanna celebrate my birthday with u.... but, u cant come back yet....... i hope when u back that time... u still can find me....... i miss ya soooooo much........

23/9

it's been a long time i didn post blog here...
well... a new sem started and i really do not have time to blog...
a lot of things happen in this sem... and some sad things happen also...
and it makes me really beh song with someone... someone who is selfish, didn think of other peoples, oni think of him/herself... hate the people like this... i feel so sorry to that person...
of course... i wont be my coursemates... cause i really do... do appreaciate them so much... love u all so much... u all now still always be there for anyone when we r having trouble... hard to find those coursemates... and i really sincere from my heart, appreciate u all sooooo much...haha
now is my 1 week holiday, jz back frm cameron, enjoy this trip... although have 2 do some assignment...hehe
and back to reality, have to rush up my assignment this few days, hate it but have to do it... after this holiday, have to pass it up...
and after this few assignments, have another 2 coming... and need me 2 do it...
gambateh to all my coursemates ya...hehe

世界上最遥远的距离

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 生与死
而是 我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离
不是 我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你
而是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起
世界上最遥远的距离
不是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里；
世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明无法抵挡这股想念，
而是 用自已冷漠的心对爱你的人 掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠。